I never thought that I would be writing you
this letter. There was a time when I thought that our love would endure and
nothing could come between us. When our paths crossed, I knew that there’s
something in you that I wanted to dig out. Our meeting was one of the most
interesting twists on my life. Who would have thought to meet her Prince
Charming on a screen?
Our story was a fast forward telenovela. It
did not take you too long to ask a life-changing question. It was our first
time to Skype and you asked me if I could be your girlfriend. In my thought I
was like, “OMG!!”, “Seriously?”, “This is it!” And because random excitements
have been running in my mind that time, I was not able to say my sweetest
response, “Yes”, until you tagged me to a lifetime event in Facebook. Many of my friends and family were surprised
that this aloof and shy Princess had finally met her Prince.
Before I met you, I taught myself to be
strong and I built up my own walls around me. I told myself that it would take
someone enough courage to break down those walls. I did not think that I was
the one who unconsciously breaking down my own walls for your sake.
As I learned more about you, you were slowly
taking a bit part of my heart. You were so funny and I loved how you made me
laugh. I discovered more about you but one thing I admired most was your
devotion to God. I loved how you would
tell me that you were praying for me.
I then started to get closer to your family
and I could imagine how perfect your life was. You had a good career and you’re
living in one of the first class cities in the world. But I could felt the
loneliness in your heart, it seemed like something was missing. There was
sadness in your heart, a part of you that you were not able to understand.
I was still in my last year in college when
our romance started. You surprised me of coming to my graduation day. I couldn’t
believe it! But the most surprising part was I have fallen in love with you. I
haven’t seen you in real life that time and yet I felt like that I have met you
somewhere in the world before. It seemed like you were familiar to me and my
feelings for you were no longer unusual, that I had once used to this kind of
feelings but with the same person.
I believed that it was not an accident when
our paths have crossed. You came in my life with a purpose and you have brought
me new perspectives. You have brought me joy, peace, love, and hope. You’ve
made me believed that love never fails.
Despite the distance we were facing, we still loved each other unconditionally.
I was standing at the airport while my heart was
pounding too fast. I could still imagine
how I felt when I first saw you. I was running out of breath and words but you
walked towards me confidently and hugged me. You have met my family and friends
afterwards, they really admired you for being courteous and respectful. I
thought you only came here to attend my graduation, but also to ask me to be
your wife. When you popped out the magic question, “Will you marry me?” I was
totally overjoyed and I gave you my sweetest “yes”. Then you were finally promoted from boyfriend
to Fiancé. Our engagement was a transition of our lives and we anchored it to
the Cross. It was the cross where Jesus was crucified that has brought us
together, it was God’s plan that you and I were going to meet.
We started planning our wedding, you were
there and I was here. Everything was going well according to plan and we were
so excited to be meeting at the altar. But there were things that we couldn’t
control, things that have changed the plans we had. Three weeks before the wedding, we faced a
life-wrecking situation. The wedding was cancelled and we have spent a lot for
it.
Things changed eventually after that terrible
surprised. We tried to hold on to each other despite the storm and we were able
to smile in the midst of weeping. You still came here for my birthday and we
planned to be together soon. We talked about marrying in London so I needed to
make haste of my papers. But there were processes that I need to follow and it
would take me time to get a Fiancé visa.
We faced more problems then, and those added
more to our frustrations. We were so busy getting to be with each other
physically that we did not notice that we were drifting emotionally. When
things have changed, the way we viewed the situation have also changed. We got never-ending arguments. We started to
blame each other. And we were displacing our personal frustrations to each
other. I tried to remain strong believing that you would never left me alone in
this fight and that you would never gave up. But your heart had changed too,
you saw me as the problem. You get easily upset with me. I tried to understand
you even though I needed to be understood too. I set aside my own emotions so I
could be able to stand strong for you and us. But you chose to let go.
When you turned your back from me, it seemed
like the whole world turned its back too because I used to set you as the
center of my world. When you were gone, you only left me a residue of pain without
hesitating to turn around. In the end, we were stuck in two different worlds
with a screen in the middle. But the real screens that have been blocking and
keeping us away from each other were pride, doubts, anger, and selfishness.
Our story was like a roller coaster, full of
ups and downs. But all things worked together for good and again, you came into
my life for a purpose. That purpose could be a life experience that I would
always carry on my journey. We had once shared one umbrella when the rain
poured hard, but you could keep on coming back when you needed a shelter.
